But you move me
You give me courage I didn’t know I had
You move me
I can’t go with you
And stay where I am
So you move me
These lyrics popped into my head as I was brainstorming about this post. I just wanted to take a moment to say that I am so grateful for all of the people who have moved me — motivated and supported me — to make the changes I’ve made in my life the last few weeks.
Quitting my job was a big and scary thing.
Since then, I have also learned that someone who was previously very close to me – a guy who has been like family to me for years – is moving away. Our friendship has been fading this year, and this is just another nail in the coffin.
Since then, the people I considered my pseudo-parents closed the door on me, swiftly and abruptly and in a terribly harsh way. And I know it was the husband’s doing – the wife told me she was sad to know she’d never speak to me again – but she went along with it. It’s done. That hurt and shocked me.
I’ve been doing a lot of letting go.
I am no longer someone who fights like hell to hold on to relationships that are not serving me. Instead, I am someone who chooses her battles, and I’ve been standing up for myself more and more often. This is a big deal for a girl like me – the big sister who wants to save the world with a kiss and a jelly sandwich.
These changes have been so big. Last Thursday was literally the first day of the rest of my life. I have never been so excited and so terrified. I have never seen such possibility lay before me.
And I want to say thank you to all of you who have offered your congratulations and support — but especially to these people: Noah, Cassandra, Sarah, Jess, and Melly.
You guys move me. Thank you.
Joy,
Leah
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9 Responses to “You Move Me”
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Leah,
I am cheerleading you each step of the way. You have really taken a BIG step and I am so super proud of you being true to your dreams. That is fabulous. Seriously, some people never make that leap & the fact you did inspires. I know for me, it’s giving me courage to take chances too!
I hope to hear many cools stories about this adventure.
Thank you for the simple & lovely & zen banner for my bloggy home. I love it!
Sorry to hear about the friendship & that a piece of your tribe walked away. You are handling it graciously though and that is good. Be gentle with yourself in the changing of that relationship.
much happiness to you…
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“I am no longer someone who fights like hell to hold on to relationships that are not serving me. Instead, I am someone who chooses her battles, and I’ve been standing up for myself more and more often.”
That is the best couple of lines in this entry. I think it would do a lot of people a lot of good to be that kind of person.
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Leah,
Great post. Often when we make these kinds of changes, we are so caught up in our movement we forget the ones who helped us move. Clearly, you are not that kind of individual and the world needs more inspired people like yourself.
“I’ve been doing a lot of letting go.” is something we do consistently. But the older we get, the more black belt we have to become at it. Congratulations to you on what appears to one of your first journeys there. It’s all downhill from this point.
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I love you.
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Leah, Congratulations.
It looks like a huge shift.
I am awaiting this day to come to me. Same one : when up follows the down.
All the best, Sista!
Beautiful place to hang out.
Also – would you consider RSS subscriptions for us ?
Love
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Congratulations, girl! I am SO incredibly proud of you. Love the space you’ve made here. Just lovely.
Also…so sorry about the comment thing. Akismet hasn’t been too kind lately, and I was used to it being SO ON TOP of things.
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Can’t say I know exactly what you’re going through, but I understand the big scary quitting your job thing. Takes guts. Stick in there. You’ll turn out fine.
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You quit your job? what a HUGE step!! And, so many other transitions at the same time. This was a beautiful and courageous post.
Sandy
PS You are an inspiration. Thank you for being you.
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Hi Leah, I follow you on Twitter…so I found you here, but this is so moving and inspiring in and of itself I had to comment. Thanks for making your act of power so public and sharing it with us. I can’t tell you how much it means to me to read that someone is at the stage of ‘letting go of relationships that no longer serve.’ I am only at the beginning of that, but I feel the strength of your words and feel the warmth of courage…thanks. ~Shamsi
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